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  3. guardian

    LifeBac.com

    Unfortunately, they do not operate in Indiana. So, the search continues...
  4. guardian

    Bac and SSRI

    Interestingly, I've recently gone back on the Zoloft - about a week in as of today - and I have not had the same recurrence of craving. And this is at a much lower dose of baclofen, as I have been titrating down. I've added meditation to my practice, which I believe is helping me to be mindful of "what's going on with me." I'm not to the point where I'm always present, but I'm much more able to catch it when I'm drifting into worry, resentment, self-pity, anger, etc. and snap out. I've also had some significant life events that have granted me a degree of emotional intelligence that I probably should have gone through in my teenage years. I'm very grateful for these experiences, even though I'm still living them and they are devastating. I've really been forced to grow up. The first few weeks to a month of Zoloft are complete hell. I really go to a dark place. I believe they may have caused the divorce that I am currently going through. This time around I at least know what to expect. I never noticed this when I was prescribed it when drinking (I have a long history of losing my shit, going on meds, getting better, and then going off thinking that I can and should do it myself). Like any good alcoholic, I medicated what was going on inside with copious amounts of booze.
  5. Felina

    LifeBac.com

    I have not heard of this company, but that is GREAT news for people who would like a baclofen provider! I will post about it on MWO too. Thanks for the info!
  6. guardian

    LifeBac.com

    https://lifebac.com/ I have not had any luck with finding a provider willing to prescribe me baclofen, although I have only really tried a few doctors. It's out of Nevada and works by tele medical consultation. I've long since achieved indifference, so most of the selling points for the program are moot, i.e. coaching. I've been taking 280mgs of baclofen powder daily sourced from China, and I'd really like to have a cheap, domestic, and legal source for baclofen. The biggest benefit of having the valid prescription is in the case of medical emergency or incarceration, etc. Has anyone any experience with this company or similar?
  7. guardian

    Baclofen in short supply

    I have in the past ordered exclusively from https://goldpharma.cn/ . Shipment times were always very quick and the pricing is on the lower end for the generic.
  8. Alcofree

    Baclofen surplus

    Hello all, I've got Baclofen surplus I can sell for a reasonable price if you are running low. I am in UK.
  9. webtoad

    Baclofen in short supply

    I don't have a local doctor that prescribes Baclofen and have purchased it (Pacifen) online for about a year now. I stocked up early on this year after the virus reports in China however are getting close to running out. Is anyone else now finding as a result of COVID-19 that it is harder to order Baclofen online as a result? I have used a pharmacy in Vanuatu previously however there are supply issues there now. Could anyone please advise on a reliable online pharmacy where Baclofen can be purchased? Thanks
  10. tfola

    Gut Health and Info

    Gut health is the key to total wellness, ever wondered why we often say i have a gut feeling? eh...that's cause the gut is like a second brain connected to the brain thats why whenever it is out of order it signals that to the brain
  11. tfola

    Sleep is vital

    Yes you can say that again, am a living proof that sleeplessness is debilitating, am in my mid 30s and i look like a teen just because of my lack of good sleep which has plagued me for years
  12. guardian

    Stuck Again

    Hi StuckinLA. I'm still alive. Indifferent to alcohol at 320mg since about this time last year. Unfortunately, I'm one of those they speak about in AA as having "grave emotional and mental disorders" lol and I continued screwing up my life and harming people around me sans alcohol. I had really used baclofen as a bandaid in many ways. It short-circuits the disease of alcoholism, but it does fuck-all for the self-loathing, and for me, really nasty hateful person that I have been my entire life - full of pain, fear, and resentment. At this point I'm working on healing that.
  13. guardian

    Bac and SSRI

    Thank you for the feedback. I'm COMT slow (too much dopamine. hyper-focused and stressed out), so wellbutrin is a poor choice for me. Thanks again Ian
  14. StuckinLA

    Stuck Again

    cross post from MWO Been sicker than I have ever been in my life, it was the flu or stomach flu or something but it was puke off the side of the bed and lie for days in my own waste bad. Been in the hospital 3 times in the last month. The first time I signed out AMA, the second time I literally escaped running down 4 flights of stairs with security behind me, to then walk 2 miles home in the rain in only my slippers. Third time was the charm, discharged with a diagnosis of anxiety. My parents came and scooped me up and now I'm quarantined at their house, on lockdown until at least next month. Life is, well, life. How's everyone else doing? I have lost too many friends to this hellfvck disease. Check in, who's still alive?
  15. Mom2JTx3

    Bac and SSRI

    I’ve had good success with Wellbutrin.
  16. Pamela Parker

    List of Drug Interactions

    Whеn а реrsоn nееds tо tаkе mоrе аnd mоrе сocaine/drugs tо ехреrіеnсе thе sаmе lеvеl оf hіgh, thеу аrе buіldіng uр а tоlеrаnсе fоr thе drug. Іf thеу stор smоkіng сrасk or other drugs аnd bеgіn fееlіng wіthdrаwаl sуmрtоms, іnсludіng nаusеа, vоmіtіng аnd dіаrrhеа, thеіr bоdу іs dереndеnt оn thе drug. Еvеntuаllу, іf thе реrsоn соntіnuеs usіng сrасk, thеу wіll dеvеlор сrаvіngs fоr сrасk аnd kеер usіng thе drug dеsріtе ехреrіеnсіng nеgаtіvе sіdе еffесts.
  17. guardian

    Bac and SSRI

    This is for those that have taken baclofen (and found indifference) while also taking an SSRI. I'd like to know if the SSRI had any effect on your level of indifference. I've been indifferent for well over a year at this point. I recently tried going on zoloft because I'm still an asshole and I started having drinking thoughts within about a week. I'd like to know if this is true for all SSRIs. Zoloft and paxil are cited in the literature as causing the most spontaneous increases in alcohol consumption. I really need something to take my edges off. Thanks.
  18. Otter

    Help With Baclofen WDs, please!

    Baclofen takes the place of alcohol so stopping taking it is a really bad idea. You go into delerium tremens which can put you in hospital. Whoever put you on baclofen should have told you about this and overseen your dosage and treatment. You have to keep taking it and if you don’t get a result you have to go higher until you do because it works at different doses for different people. If you decide not to continue with it you have to come off it very slowly. You need to see whatever professional got you onto baclofen and get them to treat you properly. You should also see a lawyer because what you have described is rank negligence. There is enough information in the public domain that any doctor should be able to tell you the way to take baclofen and the risks of coming off it and the need for constant supervision of the daily dose Good luck Hope things work out.
  19. WilderWill

    Help With Baclofen WDs, please!

    Today I'm stuck in a parking lot feeling like I'm going to throw up, sweating profusely, and so much anxiety I can barely move. This had been an ongoing nightmare that doesnt end. I took 5mg of Baclofen in the morning about 10am, and 5 more mg around 4pm. I am feeling a tiny bit better, but fearing the next battle. I wish I had never taken this medication. I'm sure it may have its benefits, but right now all I see is hell.
  20. Otter

    What happened to interest in baclofen?

    Yes it’s a shame that there isn’t any data on how people have done on baclofen. I don’t know who the 12 Steppers were or how serious their problems were. I always felt that if someone was on a forum then they couldn’t be very seriously alcoholic. I mean, it’s embarrassing how horrible my wife’s condition was. I can’t describe it. Typically she would wake up in middle of the night having some kind of night terror, screaming like she was possessed by the devil. That would go on for half an hour and she would pass out and then wake up at 6 am and start screaming and shouting abuse. I’d have to get ready for work and get our son dressed make breakfast and feed and walk the dog. Then make sure she was ok to be left in bed for the day and wouldn’t leave the house for booze. Then I would go off to work as a prosecutor. I would phone at 10 to see if she was awake and I’d come home after picking our son up and hope she wasn’t hanging from a window screaming abuse at the neighbours. I would put our son somewhere safe and make dinner and then settle in for the night. She would sometimes get up and start a drunken rampage around the house shouting abuse maybe looking for more booze because she had run out. Sometimes it got so bad I’d hide somewhere just to get some peace. That was a good day when she didn’t throw a kitchen drawer through a closed window, set fire to the house, get arrested DUI or assault someone parking outside out house. She was picked up by the police wandering down the middle of roads, abandoned our son in a car and wandered off not remembering where she left him. She took a knife to herself more times than I could count and carved her name into her left forearm. She tried to kill herself by throwing herself out of the car on the highway at 70 mph on a routine basis. That is just what I can remember but it went on for ten years. But the answer was that she had brain damag. She has a big black spot on her brain scans right where Ameisen said the anxiety disorder underlying alcoholism stems from and the fact that she benefitted immediately from he first baclofen pill was some kind of miracle The thing is that alcohol damages this part of the brain in everyone eventually but she had a stroke so it was worse. The hardest part of the recovery was coping with no help from anyone and the attitude of people made it even worse. Work colleagues knew about it and asked how I could cope. I guess I was younger and I had no choice but I would say that it could be worse Who wasn’t to complain when people had survived concentration camps and Gulags. Today she went out shopping with her daughter just like an ordinary mum. So, yes there is a cure for alcoholism.
  21. Hello Hoping for some help from a desperate alcoholic and addict! I was recently in a treatment center for alcohol and drugs (was successfully detoxed off of Xanax), and they put me on Baclofen, 10mg 3x day for the benzo Wds. I really didnt think anything of it, as I had no knowledge of Baclofen except that it was a .muscle relaxer. After being on the 30mg for about 6 weeks, I stopped taking it, again, not thinking too much of it. That night I was hit with the most crippling ANXIETY I have ever had!!! Even worse than benzo wds anxiety!! And that's BAD! I also felt really out of it, couldn't sleep, and crazy racing thoughts! Immediately I knew it was Baclofen as that had been the only thing that changed. I went back on to 20mg/day for about a week, then back to 30mg/day. I've been on it for a total of about 8 weeks now. Last night I didnt take my nighttime dose, took a dose this morning, then went out of the house and didnt take any of my daytime doses. I got the WORST withdrawals again!! This time they came with a rapid heart rate and palpitations!! I am so scared now that all my hard work getting clean will be derailed by baclofen. I have 14 10mg pills left and I want off!! The only think that scares me after reading this forum a little, is what if the great feeling I've had since quitting xanax and alcohol have not been bc I am clean but bc of the baclofen? I hadn't realized ppl use it for long term anxiety and that is one of my biggest issues. What if I get off the baclofen (if I can get off) and feel terrible all the time? I'm very worried. My plan is to break all the 10mg pills in half, giving me 28 5 mg doses. I will take 3/day, 15mg, for the first 5 days (15 doses), then 2/day, 10mg, for 5 days (10 doses), then 1 day, 5mg, for 3 days (3 doses for a total of 28 doses). Does that sound like a reasonable plan? Should I go into even smaller doses? Baclofen is very strong even 5mg it has noticeable effects for me. I never knew the nightmare I was setting myself up for. I need help please, I know this forum seems dead but if anyone is around pls help me, I'm really messed up over this and I dont know what to do. Thank you, Thank you. Please help me. Ps. I also have a large supply of Gabapentin, can this help alleviate the Baclofen wds? I think they work on the same receptor so I'm thinking possibly they can help. Thanks!
  22. guardian

    What happened to interest in baclofen?

    Hi Otter, I recognize you from WAY back. Wonderful to hear that you are doing so well. Your explanation makes a lot of sense and assuages a lot of my cynicism. I am a true alcoholic (I believe). However, most of the older men in my family were very hard drinkers; Harder women, harder times, and old age made them moderate drinkers eventually. I'm probably a bit more of a lazy drama queen than those iron bastards, and I also didn't want to "figure it out" after screwing my kids up. I already destroyed a perfectly good marriage. It's unfortunate that the 12Sers are so territorial because that's where you find the true gutter drunks - The guys who have been institutionalized or lived long stretches in half-way houses. Those are the people where baclofen could really shine. And I, like Amneisen, have found a lot of relief in AA. I'm not as low-bottom as the average AA. But, I'm a person who even after curtailing my alcoholism with bac still needed some sort of program or framework to help me to be a good person. I'm glad that you responded to this. It sounds like you struggled a bit to "carry the message" to an unwilling audience. I was ruminating over the same sense of responsibility. I think I may just need to be grateful that I found it and it saved my life - because for me, drinking was only getting worse.
  23. Otter

    What happened to interest in baclofen?

    I think that interest in the forum has declined because now any doctor dealing with alcoholism knows about baclofen. The issue I had from day one on MWO is that we should not have to be giving out advice because we aren’t doctors. MWO is mainly for 12 Steppers who never accepted baclofen treatment. Nal is now approved for use in a lot of countries. Also, the success of baclofen for us has meant that we can lead a normal life now so there’s no need to come here. I can’t come here and try to help people because I am not qualified. I am not an alcoholic and never was. But I take baclofen because I came to understand that it is the key to dealing with anxiety because of the neuro-receptors it works on. I take it most days and it makes me feel great because I feel normal without stress. But how do you tell people about a drug which makes you feel like life is just fine? Most people who turn to drugs want a buzz or to relieve pain. I take baclofen because I get anxious and I worry about lots of things and end up just sitting around all day stewing about things. With 10 mg of baclofen my worries go away. It’s not treating depression or maybe anxiety leads to depression. I think a lot of members are in the same situation as us in that they are recovered and have moved on. I have other sites I still work on and a legal paper I try to keep up to date because the law changes. It’s been picked up by some lawyers and doctors and out on a couple of sites. The movement has stalled because the direction needs to move from getting the drug into the public arena to other issues such as how a cure for the disease for some should impact on other problems the disease has caused and that is still hard because the public still have an antipathy towards alcoholics. I started doing some YouTube videos a few weeks ago as well but I am pretty crap at it. Getting out from underneath a family alcohol problem is also a great relief and allows you to get busy on other things and not spend your life mired in despair you want to forget and move on When you do you don’t want to be dragged back down again by rehashing bad memories The other issue I have is that there is so much argument about the success of baclofen and it just gets to me having to explain how and why it works and being called names and picked apart
  24. Title says it. MWO and this site have virtually no traffic in the meds forum, and that is mostly naltrexone related. Is it due to many people just wanting a magic pill or quick fix? I personally needed to dose up to 400mgs at one point to reach indifference. It was neither quick nor easy. I was also faced with the choice of suicide, alcoholic annihilation, or baclofen. So, maybe hard to compare my needs to someone who perhaps has a bit too much wine too early.
  25. Felina

    EMDR

    That's fantastic, @Alcofree! Congrats on your newfound freedom!
  26. Alcofree

    EMDR

    Hello all! I'd like to thank all of you who helped me during my struggles! To cut a very long story short: I managed to get Naltrexone on prescription and it worked really well for me. And I had EMDR for my PTSD and ... haven't craved booze ever since. I've believed the theory that there is always a trauma ( big, small, recent, from childhood etc) as a root of any addiction (literally any- OCD, booze, fags, food etc.) So if anyone is still really struggling- look into getting EMDR. I swear by it! Good luck and warm wishes.
  27. Felina

    baclofen SE's

    Hi @stillhoping - I agree with Otter, if your SEs are tough you might want to either stay at the same dosage until they subside, or drop down just a bit. That said, when I was titrating up on baclofen I found that some SEs hit me at certain doses and then went away when I bumped up. Mine were all over the place with crazy dreams, periods of euphoria (I wish I still had that one!), nausea, dizziness, somnolence etc.
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